After sitting in Fangtasia for only thirty minutes, I was ready to leave. I hadn’t been around this many people from whom I needed to shield myself in a long time. The only good thing that came out of reading all the vermin, as Pam liked to call them, was that I found out that Eric had shown no interest in anyone in quite a long time. Because he was showing interest in me, automatically they all hated me.
“Will you take me home now?” I asked Eric while my head was still against his shoulder.
“Are you feeling okay?” He asked me.
“I’m feeling fine, it’s your adoring fans who aren’t thinking very kind things about me, and I’m not really used to shielding from this many people anymore. I just need more sleep, and I’m going to have to get used to being around this many people again and shielding.”
“What are they thinking?” Eric asked curiously.
“Most are annoyed you’re paying attention to me. I guess you haven’t paid attention to anyone at the bar in a long time.”
“What else? I don’t think you would want to leave because you’ve found out that I’ve had no interest in these worthless humans.”
“That I’m fat. Why would you want anything to do with me? That they are prettier than I am. It’s really no big deal. I should be used to it by now.” I guess I had gotten used to no one thinking anything bad about me while I was away.
“You shouldn’t have to be used to anyone thinking those thoughts about you,” Eric sat there for a moment, trying to reign in his anger. “You have always been beautiful, but now that you are with child you are even more so.” A slow blush spread across my cheeks hearing Eric’s compliment. I didn’t think I’d ever get used to hearing him call me beautiful.
Eric stood up and held his hand out to me. Once I took it, he started walking us through the crowd, and they parted for him like the Red Sea. I thought he was just going to take me out the back door, but I realized my mistake when he started to step up on the dais.
This wouldn’t be good. I wanted to tell him not to do anything, but I knew I shouldn’t in front of all the vampires. It would make him look bad if it appeared that I couldn’t be controlled or had no respect for him, especially since I had just returned. This time I would be smarter in the way I behaved around vampires. Eric stood in front of his throne and faced the crowd while continuing to hold my hand.
“This woman here,” Eric said as he pulled me in front of him while wrapping an arm around my shoulders. “This is my wife and bonded. I expect you all to treat her with the same respect you give me. An insult to her is an insult to me and I will not tolerate anyone’s insolence. If any of you disrespect or insult my wife, your punishment will be excruciating and severe.”
Eric removed his arm he had wrapped around me, and then stepped back in front of me holding out his hand again. This time he took me out the back door and to his Corvette. I was just now realizing that my car was in Maine. What was I going to do about a car? I guess I’d think about that later. Right now, I needed to … why did Eric do that?
“Why’d you do that?” I asked him slightly annoyed. “Now they just hate me even more. Hell, they’ll probably try even harder to get your attention,” I said and crossed my arms over my chest.
“Their efforts will be in vain,” Eric scoffed. “I believe that over the last year they’ve become accustomed to my negligence, and they’re merely curious as to why I’m now spending so much time with you. They will get over it and move on.”
“Curious? I wouldn’t call it that,” I paused. Did I just hear him correctly, he said for the last year? “What did you mean for the last year or so?”
Eric looked over at me briefly, but said nothing. We continued in silence for the rest of the drive to his house. Our house. Once we pulled into the garage, he came around to my side of the car to help me out, and then took my bags out of the car. When did my bags get into the car?
We had just walked into the kitchen when Eric turned around and started talking. “I would like for us to share a bed, but if you are not comfortable with that, there is another room you can use. I have modified my room since you’ve been gone. I’ve added a nightstand, lamp, an overhead light, and an alarm clock for you. If you want anything else you only have to ask,” he paused and seemed unsure for a moment. “Or you can add anything yourself. Whatever you want.”
I could feel he was apprehensive that I might still say no, even though he had provided the very things that had bothered me before and more. I didn’t want to wake up in total darkness and have to work my way around in the dark to get out.
“I can just put your bags in the bedroom upstairs until you decide or for when you are ready,” he said solemnly. I could feel that he was hurt because he thought I didn’t want to share a room with him.
“No! Put them down in your room. Our room, please,” I said. Eric smiled a big, beautiful smile that only I ever got to see and turned around to take them downstairs. Through the bond, I could feel he was happy and content. He had really liked it when I called it ‘our’ room. How could I have been so wrong about him? He was so happy for me to just simply say that I wanted to share a room with him. I went into the living room and sat down on the couch to wait for Eric. It didn’t take him long to come back and sit next to me.
“Are you going to answer my question from before?” I asked him. He raised an eyebrow in question.
“Don’t act as if you don’t know what I’m talking about,” I knew that he understood exactly to what I was referring. Vampires never forget. Anything.
“I’ve not had any other interest in over a year,” Eric said, and then shrugged.
“What do you mean other interests? I didn’t think they really interested you to begin with. I thought it was all just fucking and feeding.”
“Such vulgar language!” he teased. “Yes, that was all they ever were, but they are no more,” he said. Eric took both my hands into his significantly larger ones and looked me in the eyes. “Sookie, I have been with no other since we bonded in Rhodes.”
“You can’t be serious! You, the great Eric Northman, Viking vampire sex god have not had sex with anyone since Rhodes but me? Why didn’t you tell me this before? After you got your memories back? We weren’t even together for much of that time.”
“Being bonded to you is very special to me. I knew that you didn’t feel the same way about our bond. I was hoping that eventually you would learn to love it as I do. I didn’t want to make it a bigger deal than it already was. I knew that if I did you wouldn’t believe me.”
“I want you to know that I’m terribly sorry for the way I treated you before. It’s still hard for me to wrap my head around the fact that you, a thousand-year-old vampire, who is smart, funny, and drop-dead gorgeous, ‘the total package’, could want me. I’m nothing special and you’re… you. You could have anyone that you wanted.”
He chuckled. “You have no idea how special you are, you have plenty of suitors who are just waiting for me to fuck up so they can get their chance to be with you,” he sighed. “I am no good at this, Sookie. Expressing myself, my feelings. Before I met you I had very few emotions, and ever since you have come into my life, I am the happiest I have ever been,” he said, his accent becoming more pronounced with every word and his contractions dropping. If we didn’t have the bond, I’d still be able to tell that this was very difficult for him to say these things.
“I have been jealous of the men in your life, protective over something that was not even mine, saddened by the things Bill has done to you, for what you went through after I got my memories back after the curse, and how I treated you. I have felt your tenderness and true affection, I have been devoted to someone other than myself, and made love for the first time in over a thousand years. None of this has been easy for me, feeling these things, and having never truly been in a relationship. The only relationship I had ever been in was when I married my brother’s wife after he died, and I did so because that was what needed to be done. I did not choose her. I did eventually begin to care for her, but nothing like I do for you. Sookie, I do not want you to doubt my feelings for you, even if I do not tell you often, you can feel them through the bond. It will never lie to you.”
Eric wiped away the tears that had been falling throughout his entire speech. I never thought I would hear anything like that from him.
“I’m sorry I’m crying. It’s the hormones, but mostly it’s that I never expected anything like that from you. It means you love me, right?” I asked him.
He chuckled, “Of course it does, silly girl. I am sorry I have not said it before if it was what you needed to hear. In the past you have never wanted to talk about your feelings or my own …”
I interrupted him. “Do you want to know why?” I asked him. He nodded for me to go ahead. “I didn’t want to put myself out there and tell you how I felt, and then have you not feel the same. I knew I wouldn’t be able to handle it. What happened with Bill messed me up for so long. I’ve made you pay for everyone else’s mistakes and that was not fair to you,” I said, shaking my head. I reached up and cupped my hand to his cheek. “You have never given me any reason to believe that you would lie to me, but Bill had poisoned me for so long about you. Then you were cursed and I fell in love with you, and once I let you in again after you got your memories back, I tried to keep my distance because I knew that if I ever fully gave myself to you and we didn’t last, it would nearly kill me. I’m sorry for before, but now I know that you truly care for me, and would do anything for me. I trust you with my life and my heart, Eric Northman.”
I pulled her to me, straddling my lap, and crushed my lips to hers. I could feel her love for me and it warmed my cold, dead heart. It still amazed me that she could love someone like me. I don’t know what I did to deserve her, but I would do anything for her and never take her for granted again.
I brought my hand up to her face and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. I leaned in and she closed her eyes as my lips brushed against hers. She relaxed her body against mine searching for more, and I took that as my invitation. My lips were on hers then, softly at first as I reached my hand around to the back of her neck and ran my fingers through her hair. Our mouths moved together in a wonderful rhythm and my tongue sought entrance, which she happily gave. Her heart began to beat even faster as the kiss deepened and she moaned into my mouth. I let out a groan and pulled her closer to me. My hands were roaming all over her voluptuous body when I felt movement from her swollen belly. I snapped back to reality and I pulled my hand away.
“What’s wrong? It’s just the baby,” she paused, and I felt a mixture of conflicting emotions travel through her. “Did it bother you to feel it move? Does it bother you?”
“No, it doesn’t,” I looked away from her unsure of what to say next. I needed to tell her know how I truly felt. After I was taken away from my human family, I had never thought nor wanted to have children, but if it was possible, I would love to see Sookie round with my child.
I felt my eyes fill with tears, and when I turned back to look at Sookie, she gasped and brought her hands to my cheeks, wiping her thumbs underneath my eyes.
“Please, Eric, tell me what’s going on with you. I hate to see you hurting. What can I do?”
“Just listen to what I have to say,” I said to her, and she nodded while taking hold of my hand. “The baby does not bother me. I only wish that it was mine, to know that your belly is swollen with my child. Before when we were together, we never really talked much about what you would be giving up to be with me. We never talked about you wanting or having children. This is something I cannot give you.”
“No, we never talked about it before, but there are lots of things we didn’t talk about that we needed to discuss. I think we have both learned from our previous experience that we need to learn how to better communicate. I knew that by being with a vampire that I wasn’t going to have any children and I was fine with that,” she put up her hand up for me to not interrupt her.
“Please let me finish. I never wanted a child for a couple of reasons. First, that any child I had could potentially be telepathic, and I wouldn’t want that for anyone, least of all my own child. Secondly, the world that we live in is too dangerous for a baby or a child, let alone one who may be telepathic. Yet, once I found out I was pregnant, I couldn’t have an abortion; I was trying to stay away from all Supernatural creatures, and not be brought back into that world. It may not have been what I wanted, but now that I am pregnant? I want this baby and I already love him or her.”
She took in a deep breath. “If I could choose who the biological father of this baby would be, it would be you,” she moved closer to me and was now holding both of my hands. “The man that I love more than anything and would do anything for, but we both know that was never going to happen. So I need to ask you, can you accept me having this baby, knowing where it came from, and that it’s not yours?”
“I can and I do. I only wanted you to know that I wish I could give you a child. For you to have our child.”
“I wish that, too. Are you really ready for a baby or a child to live here for the next eighteen years? Do you really want to make that kind of commitment?”
“I don’t think anyone is ready for that type of change right away, but I want you and the baby to live here. I want to make that commitment to the both of you. Sookie, you’re my wife and I plan on you still being here with me in eighteen years.”
“Now I’m going to ask you something, and I want you to really think about if this is something you want,” she said, looking intently into my eyes. I nodded. I had no idea where she could be going with this. “We are married and you want us to live as though we are married, to be a real married couple, right?” I nodded again. “I would like it if you would be this child’s father, to protect, care, support, and guide him or her. I want you to be a real father to this baby and do all the things a dad would do.”
“I will be the father of this child in every way that matters, and I will try to be the father you want me to be. As a human when I was a father, I had little to do with my children, that was the mother’s responsibility. My job was to work in the fields, to protect our village, and then later when my sons got older, I would have taught them how to use a sword and to fight. I know that is very different from how things are done now, and I will try to be the father that this child should have.”
By the time I was done Sookie had tears trailing down her cheeks, but a smile on her face. I wiped them away while telling her, “I still don’t like seeing you cry, even if you are happy.”
She giggled at me, “I know you’re going to make a great father. Hell, I know you’ve already got the protective part down.”
“That I do. Do you need anything to eat or drink? There’s something I want to give you downstairs and I’m hoping that once we are down there we’ll be staying there for the rest of the night.”
“What do you want to give me down there?” She asked coyly, and I started to feel her lust igniting the bond.
“Amazingly, I’m not talking about sex, at least not right away. I want to give you something else first.”
“That has to be a first, Mr. Northman.”
“I believe it is, but as you already know, I’ve had many firsts with you and I hope there are more yet to come. Come downstairs with me,” I said and held my hand out for her. I helped her up when she took my hand and led her downstairs. Once we’d gone through the security system and the door closed behind us, I guided her toward the bed.
After I sat down, Eric went into the closet and disappeared for a moment. When he came out, I could feel that he was nervous, but what could he possibly be nervous about? He came and stood in front of me. Taking my hands in one of his, his eyes never left mine as he slowly got down onto one knee. I gasped and my eyes probably bulged out of my head, I was so shocked.
Is he doing what I think he’s doing?
“Sookie, I once told you that I would bring you to my side, share everything I have with you. I promise I will stay with you always. We will know each other’s bodies in every way, night after night. I will love you until the end of my days. You are the most beautiful, smart, loyal, funny, brave, responsible, hardworking, and creative person I know, and I would be honored if you would be my wife forevermore,” Eric said while looking me in the eyes. I could feel how much he meant these words and remembered that he had once said something very similar when he had amnesia.
“Yes,” I said a little too shaky. I was so overwhelmed by the love I felt coming from him and by his words. “Yes,” I said again, but this time with love and conviction. When I said it the second time Eric slid the most beautiful 18-karat white gold wedding band onto my finger. It had what looked like hundreds of glittering diamonds framing the band and beautiful, delicate flowers and leaves made of more perfectly cut diamonds covering the band. It was the most stunning and unique ring I had ever seen. After putting the ring on, he kissed my finger where my ring now sat.
“Eric, this is so beautiful! It’s the most stunning ring I’ve ever seen!” I said while admiring the ring on my finger. “I can’t even begin to express how much this means to me.” I looked back up at Eric with unshed tears in my eyes. “That you would acknowledge our marriage in the human world as you have in the Supernatural world,” I said to him, and then threw my arms around his neck kissing him as hard as I could.
Eric gripped the back of my head and held me to him, kissing with me with so much passion that I thought my lips might bruise. We only broke away once because I had to breathe. Eric stood up from being down on his knee and sat down beside me, placing a jewelry box in my hand.
“Open it,” he said, eyeing the box. I was surprised when I opened it to find a man’s wedding band inside. It looked as if it was made out of silver, which it obviously wasn’t. The band was smooth and simple, but what surprised me the most was what I found on the inside of the band. Tears began to spill down onto my cheeks as I read my name engraved into the band.
“You said that we needed wedding rings, so I hope you approve,” he said, looking down at the box still in my hand. “If not, we can get something else.”
“No! I love both the rings! I think I’m just shocked by everything tonight. I never thought I’d see you with a wedding band on, or that I would be married,” I said as I took the ring out of the box.
I slowly slid the band onto his finger while pouring my heart and soul out to him, “In your eyes, I have found my home. In your heart, I have found my love. In your soul, I have found my mate. Eric, with you, I am whole, full, and alive. You make me laugh. You are my breath, my every heartbeat. I am yours and you are mine. You have been caught in my heart. The key is lost and now you must stay there forever.”
Eric pulled me against his body seizing my lips with his. I pulled away and he let out a sigh of disappointment. I smiled at him. I wouldn’t make him wait long. “Eric,” I said and cupped his face with my hands, “You have made me very happy tonight, so very happy, and I can’t wait to spend forever with you. I want to renew our bond tonight and I want to become one with you. I want this baby,” I said, and took and placed his hand on my stomach. “To have a part of you within it. Always. Will you rebond with me?” I asked.
Eric kissed me fiercely and screwed his eyes shut. I looked at him as he kissed me and watched as his face scrunched up, and then relaxed the more we kissed. My eyes fluttered closed as I melted into him.
“One,” he mumbled against my lips. “We will be one and nothing will tear us apart. Never again.”
“Never,” I murmured in response, and then gasped when he cupped my face and quickly pulled away from me.
“Tell me,” he said almost frantically. “Tell me you want this.”
I placed my hands over his and I smiled wide. “I want to become one with you. I want this baby to have a part of you within it. Always. Will you rebon-”
His lips crashed onto mine and his tongue swept into my mouth taking my breath away.
“Yes, Sookie,” his voice cracked. “Always yes.”
I felt him tug at the hem of my shirt and I lifted my arms to help him slide it off of me. My shirt disappeared somewhere behind me while Eric ran his nose and lips all over the top my breasts, occasionally kissing and tasting my skin with his tongue. His large hands slid from my shoulders, down to my back, and, in one swift motion, he unhooked my bra and slowly took it off as well.
His cool lips never left my skin, I wrapped my arms around him and pressed my body against his.
“Eric…” I purred as his tongue swirled and his blunt teeth scraped against the sensitive spot on the side of my neck.
“Sookie…” Eric groaned, and then finally pulled away to take off his shirt and gently pushed me down onto the bed. He leaned down and placed feather light kisses on my swollen belly and I felt my heart swell. Eric looked up and gave me a sweet smile that I knew was only for me. He gave my stomach one last kiss before he made quick work of my pants and panties and, before I knew it, I was bare and absolutely ready to be claimed by Eric. My lover. My Husband.
Eric kissed his way up to my breasts and took one of my pink nipples into his mouth. He sucked me so gently; I thought I might cum from the stimulation alone. His hands softly roamed over my body, leaving a trail of fire wherever they went.
“Eric, please,” I whimpered. I needed to feel him inside of me. It had been too long.
He lifted his head and looked down at me.
“I’m going to touch, kiss, and taste every inch of you, Sookie,” he said passionately. “I’m going to worship you every night till the end of time and never again will you have reason to question our love.”
He sat up, and his eyes never left mine as he unbuckled his leather belt and unbuttoned his pants. I watched as he slid them off his hips and his gracious plenty sprang forward. God! I had forgotten just how massive, strong, and beautiful he was.
A smile formed on his lips as his eyes raked over my body.
“You’re gorgeous, Sookie,” he said with reverence.
His lips descended onto my stomach once more and just as he vowed, he kissed, touched, and worshipped my whole body while telling me that he loved me. That he needed me. That I was his everything.
Eric kissed back up my inner thigh and inhaled deeply when he reached the drenched lips of my womanhood. I let out a whimper and involuntarily bucked my hips. He simply smirked at me, and then crawled back up my body and attached his cool lips onto mine. I could feel the tip of his magnificent erection resting at the entrance of my hot core.
“I love you, my Sookie,” he said as he slid inside as if I’d never been gone, as if we’d made love every night for the past five months.
“This is best,” he whispered, and his voice had that accent I caught occasionally, that hint of a time and place that was so far distant I couldn’t even imagine. “This is best,” he said again. “This is right.”
“Oh Eric,” I moaned, grasping his shoulders and wrapping my legs around his narrow waist.
With his long body, he was able to arch his back to avoid putting too much pressure on my stomach. His elbows were on either side of my face and his hands cupped the back of my head. His blue eyes bore into mine and I fought to keep my eyes open. His long, deep, and slow strokes were so intense, I could feel the all too familiar pressure building in my pelvis.
“Er-ric!” I cried out, trying to fight off my impending orgasm. It was too soon. Too soon.
“Don’t fight it, Sookie,” Eric moaned, thrusting harder and faster. “Let go.”
I dug my nails into his shoulders and screamed silently as my first orgasm tore through me. I kept rocking my hips as Eric continued driving into me, making my body sing for him.
Eric kissed my lips, and then sat up, placing his hands on my thighs and spreading me wider for him. His eyes moved down to where we were joined and he watched as he slid in and out of me.
“I’ve missed you wrapped around me, Sookie,” he groaned. “I’ve missed how perfectly we fit together.” His hips started pumping faster and his thrusts became deeper and harder, all the while he chanted my name.
“Oh, fuuuc- Sookie, Sookie, Sookie.”
“Eric I- I,” I tried to tell him that I loved him, but the heavenly burn of another impending climax started to overtake me and I couldn’t form the words. Instead, I held his hands on my thighs, I squeezed the muscles of my throbbing walls, and Eric lost it. His hips slammed into me and he lost his rhythm as he shot his cool seed into me.
He dropped his head and loosened his grip on my thighs.
“Oh Lover,” he moaned while lowering himself, and kissed me with so much love and passion, it brought me to tears.
With his length still solid and buried in me, he pulled me up so I was straddling him, and he started rocking my hips.
“I never want this to end,” he brushed his lips against mine and I sighed at the pleasure he was creating within me. I started to grind my hips, rubbing my clit against his pelvis, and we both gasped at the sensation.
“I love you, my husband,” I moaned, grinding faster as he thrust upward.
“Again,” he demanded, driving harder into me. I gasped and looked him in his fiery blue eyes. “I love you, I love you, my- Ah!” I threw my head back and screamed as my climax suddenly overtook me. I could barely feel Eric’s fangs in my neck, and I immediately latched onto his bloody wrist and drank deeply when he brought it to my lips. I moaned and whimpered against his cool skin as the aftershocks of my orgasm rippled through me.
I couldn’t help the tears that fell from my eyes.
“I’ve missed you,” I said, my voice quivering from all that I was feeling. All that he was feeling.
Eric healed the wound on my neck and kissed me deeply. His love, happiness, confidence, and relief filled me and I relished being one with him again.
“My bonded,” I whispered before crashing my lips onto his.
“Always yours,” He rested his forehead against mine and wrapped his arms around me. “Forever yours, my wife.”