We were quiet for most of the ride home from New Orleans. I could tell that Eric had something on his mind by the serious look on his face and his total concentration on the road ahead of us.
Once we were home, Eric and I went our separate ways. He went to take our bags up to our room, and I walked around our loft trying to get my bearings in my home. A home I didn’t remember, but I wanted to be able to find what I needed and not have to rely on Eric for everything.
I was just walking through what I had decided to call the sun room because of how bright it was during the day with all the windows that lined the room facing out towards the deck when I caught a glowing silhouette outside.
It only took me a moment to realize that it was Eric who was sitting outside on one of the loungers sideways, looking up at the sky.
I walked through the house looking for a door that led outside. I finally found it at the top of the stairs in the living room. I stopped a few feet away from him, uncertain as to what to do since he hadn’t acknowledged me. I was getting ready to head back inside, to leave Eric to his thoughts, when he stretched out an arm toward me while still gazing at out the night.
I slowly walked over to him, feeling nervous as to why Eric was acting this way. His arm was still stretched out when I came into its reach, he grabbed my hand and led me to sit beside him.
I turned to look up at him. We sat there for a few moments before he turned and looked down at me, tucking a piece of hair behind my ear.
“What wrong? It must be bad,” I said to him.
He gave me a small smile, “I’m unsure if it’s bad or not. Definitely, something for me to be concerned about though.”
“Do you want to talk about it? I know that I won’t be much help, but I’d be happy to listen,” I said with a shrug.
“Min älskare, you always help me,” he said while trailing his knuckles down my arm until he reached my hand. Eric raised my hand to his mouth and placed a light kiss on upon it. “Right before we left to come home, I received a text from Pam stating that a vampire had come to check in.”
I nodded my head encouragingly. That didn’t seem to be a big deal, but what did I know.
“When she asked for his address to put into our system… the address he gave was in Bon Temps.”
“That’s where I’m from, right?” I asked.
He looked out into the night once more before turning back and nodding his head in agreement.
“And this has you concerned?”
“There are no vampires that live in your hometown. It’s a very small town; that’s biased against vampires. No vampire would want to live there, and there’s also the knowledge that he’s from the queens court. One wouldn’t leave the comforts of court to live in Bon Temps.”
We were quiet for a few moments. Eric still held onto my hand, while he ran his thumb across the back of my hand. I knew there must be something else. He was still so quiet and contemplative.
“There’s something else, isn’t there?” I asked, removing my gaze from our hands and up to his devastatingly, beautiful face that was etched in concern.
“The address that he gave… it’s the house across the cemetery from where you grew up. I don’t think it’s a coincidence.”
“You think he’s come for me,” I stated with little more than a whisper.
“I’m afraid so. Not very many of the residences in Bon Temps actually believe that you can read minds,” he said and then let out a deep sigh. “They treated you as if there was something wrong with you. They called you ‘Crazy Sookie’, but no one really believed in what you could do. I don’t think we will have a problem with them talking and the ones who know are your friends and can’t talk about it.”
“Why can’t they talk about it?” I asked confused. Had they been threatened?
“Once I found out about your telepathy, and we were together, I glamoured those who knew, so they would never be able to talk about it. We knew that the reveal was coming and didn’t want any vampire to be able to come along and glamour it out of them.”
“It’s a good thing you did that then.”
“I believe it is. Yes.”
He smirked at me, “You already seem to know me so well.”
“I’m learning, but I can see the worry and concern on your face.”
He let out a sigh before responding, “I wouldn’t be as worried if you had your memories. You’ve always had a good intuition on who you could trust, who’s good and bad. I hope that you still have that. He’s coming into the bar tomorrow night to check in with me; maybe we will find out more then.”
He stood up and pulled me up with him. “We should go inside. It’s getting late, and I want to show you how the security system works.”
I followed Eric inside and to the door that I went through to get outside. He turned me around toward the wall, where there was a keypad by the door.
“You’ll also find a keypad by our bedroom door, and the front door. We need to get you a new phone, yours was destroyed in the accident, on the phone there’s an app for the security system as well. You can arm it from anywhere. I’ll send an email to our dayman to get you one tomorrow, and I’ll teach you how to use it.”
He showed me what all the different buttons on the keypad could do from setting the alarm, to bringing down metal light-tight shutters throughout the whole house or by rooms or zones. It seemed quite impressive. Eric explained to me that security was very important to any vampire. They didn’t want anyone to get to their daytime resting place, but it was also for me to feel safe if I was ever home alone and felt threatened in any way.
“Have I or we, ever had to use the security system?”
“No, we only use the alarm and the extra security at our bedroom door, but I wanted to have it just in case.”
“The other day, you said that I bought this place for you, for our anniversary. Didn’t that cost a lot of money?”
“It did,” he said with a shrug. “But we have plenty of money. Actually, you used your own money to buy it.”
“Where did I get the money from?” I asked, curious as to where I would get that kind of money. Money that was my own.
“Let’s go sit down,” he said and directed me to the sun room. Once we sat down, Eric ran his hands through his hair before looking at me. “You had a cousin that died. She left you the money.”
“That was nice of her. That I had someone in my family that could and would do that for me, but what’s the big deal. You didn’t have me sit down just to tell me about a cousin that died that I don’t even remember.”
“No, I didn’t. Your cousin, you never even knew she was your cousin. We only found about the other side of your family once she died. Before that you thought she was a friend.”
“Other side?” I asked dumbfounded.
“Yes, when we first met, I knew you were different, you smell and taste better than any other human I’ve ever come into contact with. When she died, we found out that you’re an eighth fairy.”
“Yes, fairy. They look like any other human except they are very beautiful with pointy ears,” he said but stopped as I reached up to feel my ears. Not pointy. He let out a little chuckle before continuing. “Most of them live in a different realm than ours and must go through portals to get between worlds. They cannot lie, but will not always tell you everything and like to speak in riddles. They’re ferocious and very secretive about their ways. Therefore, I don’t know a lot about them. They stay away from vampires in general since their blood and smell are intoxicating to us. Your great-grandfather is the prince of fae. You’ve only met him once, but, unfortunately, you can’t remember it. We decided with him that it would be in your best interest for you to have zero contact. No other fairies know of your existence, and we’d like to keep it that way.”
“Why?” I asked after I let all this information absorb.
“If other fairies knew of your existence than they could try to hurt you to get back at your great-grandfather. The supernatural world is very dangerous, and it was a decision based on your safety.”
“Am I intoxicating to you?” I asked. Maybe that’s what this gorgeous creature was doing with me. He couldn’t help himself.
“No, you only taste and smell better, but because of your smell you do receive a lot of unwanted attention from the supernatural community, in general, but especially from vampires,” he said while running his hand through his hair.
“I was hoping to be able to keep you away from Fangtasia for a little while longer. Let you get your bearings so to speak. All the vampires in my area know who you are and to leave you alone. It’s only newcomers that we have to worry about not knowing, but you’ll be watched over at all times and no one will let anything happen to you. If you want, you can stay home tomorrow while I go in, if you’re not ready.”
“I knew you’d have to get back to work sooner or later. You can’t put life on hold for me forever. I think I’ll be fine to go with you,” I said with a shrug. “I might as well get back to my life, even if I don’t remember it.”
“Sookie, I would put the world on hold for you. Never doubt, I would do anything for you. The only reason I need to go in and meet this vampire when he checks in is because of the circumstances we discussed. We don’t want to be caught unaware if he’s here for you.”
“How would the queen have learned about me?”
“That I don’t know, but if we find out that’s what he’s here for, then I’ll do everything in my power to find out.”
We sat quietly on the couch looking out and watching the night sky change colors. From black, to blue, to orange and red. It was beautiful seeing all the colors come to life.
Once I saw the sun slowly starting to come into view, I removed my gaze from the skyline and onto Eric. He was already looking at me and smiled as I thoroughly took in the site before me.
Even though I could only remember Eric for a few days, I knew he had to be one of the most gorgeous men in the world, but with the sun’s light shining on him, he was even more so.
“You know you’re gorgeous don’t you,” I stated.
He gave me a small smile before chuckling, “I’m glad you think so, älskare.” He cupped one side of my face in one hand and used his other to run his fingers through my hair. “It is you, who is gorgeous. You’re the most beautiful woman in the world to me.”
I blushed from the compliment. I had to be the luckiest girl in the world to have this man for my husband. I swallowed hard before raising my hand and using my fingertips to trace along Eric’s face.
After staring into his blue eyes for so long I almost got lost, I let my fingers continue their journey down his body. I caressed the firm coolness of his defined muscles as they tensed under my touch. I slowly ran them up the front of his chest, feeling each ridge; each muscle twitched as a reaction to my touch. It was intoxicating to feel his response, see his pupils dilate with desire, as I ran my hands from his pecs, smoothing them over his washboard abs and along his delicious V.
He closed his eyes momentarily, clearly enjoying my touch. I hesitantly leaned into him and brushed my lips against his. He ran the tip of his tongue over my bottom lip. His fingers slowly brushed against my cheeks, his palms resting to frame my face as he tenderly deepened the kiss. His lips were so soft, his tongue slowly, parting my lips and melting with mine. His devotion touched me, taking my breath away with each caress.
I sighed into the kiss as my fingers dug into his shoulders. I could feel Eric press his body into mine, his impressive erection pressed into my belly. He continued his tender and relentless assault on my mouth.
He stopped abruptly, placing his hands beside my shoulders and braced himself, letting his forehead drop to my shoulder so that his nose and mouth were buried against my neck, shaking his head, before he lifted it up and pressed on final chaste kiss to my lips.
“We need to stop now, or I won’t be able to stop. I only have so much control and with you…” he shook his head before cupping my face once again. “Thank you, for sharing this sunrise with me,” he said giving me a beautiful smile. “I should get you to bed. It’s late, and you’re tired.”
I agreed that it was late, but I also felt rejected from his abrupt end of our kiss. I walked slowly to our bedroom and into the bathroom to get ready for bed.
When I walked out Eric was already in bed, laying down with his eyes closed. I wasn’t sure if he was asleep yet or not. I slid into bed on my side, closed my eyes, and hoped to fall asleep soon.
“Yeah?” I asked quietly.
“I want you to know that I want you,” he said before taking my hand and running it along his torso until I felt his erection straining against the fabric of his sleeping pants. I jerked my hand back and pulled it to my chest, feeling both aroused and embarrassed.
“Eric!” I shrieked. My face stained with my blush.
He rolled over onto his side to face me and retook my hand. I tried to pull it away, but he held on tight.
“I promise to keep our hands above the covers,” he said with a mischievous smile on his face. “I only wanted you to see how much I truly want you. It’s not something you should ever have to question.”
“Then why did you stop our kiss?” I said looking down.
“Look at me, min älskare,” he said as he brought his fingers underneath my chin so I’d look at him. Once our eyes locked onto one another’s, he placed a soft kiss upon my lips before pulling back.
“You may be ready to kiss me, but I doubt that you’re ready for more than that. I didn’t mean to make you feel unwanted, but I needed to get myself under control before I ravished you until I died for the day. I’m sorry for making you feel that way. Do you understand now?”
I nodded my head as best as I could while laying down. “Can you tell me about the first time we kissed? Do you remember?”
“I remember everything from the time I became a vampire, but even if I didn’t, I would definitely remember our first kiss.”
“When was it?” I asked as I scooted my body closer. Our faces only inches apart.
“After our first date, I walked you to your door. We kissed until I had just enough time to get home before the sun came up,” I watched as he closed his eyes for a moment before his cerulean colored eyes locked onto mine.
“I think we were both nervous. I can’t remember a time since I’ve been a vampire that I’ve been that anxious and nervous about kissing someone. Maybe not even in my human life. I hadn’t kissed anyone in over a hundred years, and I hadn’t wanted to kiss anyone since I had become a vampire. This kiss I wanted.”
I smiled at him and traced a finger over his cheek and then his lips. He kissed the tip of my finger and continued on with our first kiss.
“At first our lips lightly touched. I wasn’t sure how you’d react to my cold body. You knew I was a vampire, but we hadn’t yet discussed all that it entailed. I was shocked that you knew that I was a vampire and that I couldn’t glamour it out of you.”
“I shouldn’t have been worried. You ran your hands up to my shoulder and then into my hair before pulling our bodies closer together. When I traced my tongue along your lips, and you granted me entrance I thought I’d died and gone to Valhalla. You tasted exquisite, and I knew then that I’d never want to stop kissing you.”
“That must have been some kiss,” I said as I watched his eyes slowly started to close. “I wish I could remember it.”
“Me too, lover. Jag älskar dig. I’ll see you when I rise.”
I leaned over and placed a chaste kiss upon his lips, “Good night, Eric. I’ll see you when you rise.”
I was cleaning my glass out in the sink from the sweet tea I had with my meal. I had only made a sandwich and tried a couple of different brands of chips that we already had opened. I assumed that if they were opened, I must like them. It wasn’t like Eric was eating them.
I was going to have to figure out something else to make pretty soon before I was tired of eating sandwiches for almost every meal.
I was just getting ready to place the glass back in the cabinet when I heard a strange, deep voice from behind me call out my name. I shrieked and dropped the glass where it shattered into pieces all over the floor.
Everything happened all at once. I turned around to see a dark headed man, with green eyes who was almost as tall as Eric wearing jeans and a flannel shirt.
He shouted out. “Oh shit, Sookie, I’m sorry I scared you,” while he held his hands up in the air and walked toward me.
I saw a flash and the next thing I knew Eric was crouched down in front of me growling. What surprised me the most was that Eric was wet and naked.
“Whoa, hold up. What’s going on here?” The man questioned. “Eric, I just came to drop off the phone you had me get for Sookie. I didn’t mean to scare her. I’m sorry, Sookie,” the strange man said looking to me.
Eric turned around to look at me concerned, but all I could see was Eric in all his naked glory. I couldn’t stop my eyes as they took in his wet body until they reached his sizable length. I licked my lips and started to step toward him when pain shot through my left foot.
I was quickly in Eric’s arms and placed upon the kitchen counter. He lightly gripped my foot and crouched down to get a better look at it. After only a few seconds, he stood with my foot still in his cool hands.
“You’ve got a couple of pieces of glass in your foot,” he stated and then turned toward the unknown man, glaring at him. “I’m going to pull them out and then lick the wounds closed. If they still hurt, I can apply some of my blood to them, but you should be fine. Are you ready?”
I looked down at my foot and then to the man in our kitchen before I nodded in agreement. Eric pulled the glass from my foot so carefully that I didn’t feel any pain. I only saw two beads of blood where the glass had been pulled out.
Eric lowered his head and quickly licked the blood away, igniting a dull ache in my belly. Once he was done, he placed a sweet kiss to the bottom of my foot.
“All done,” he said with a sexy smirk on his face. He knew exactly what he was doing to me.
“Thank you,” I replied after clearing my throat. “Can you tell me who this man is?”
“Of course, dear one,” he said while putting an arm around my shoulders. “This is Alcide, our day man. He brought over your new phone.”
“Oh, nice to meet you,” I said while holding out my hand to shake his.
Alcide gave me a quizzical look and a side look toward Eric before shaking my hand.
“Like I said, boss, I’ve got the new phone. Is there anything else you need from me tonight?”
“We’re going to need you to get Sookie some frozen meals since she doesn’t remember how to cook. Don’t get her those cheap ones either than will smell up the house with their horrid odor. Get her real meals that are frozen with instructions. Do you think you can do that?”
“Sure, no problem. It costs more, but I know that money isn’t an issue,” he said before looking over at me. “You really don’t remember me?” I shook my head no. I didn’t remember anyone. At least now once I met someone, I would remember them. Alcide looked to Eric, “Is there any hope she’ll get her memory back?”
Eric looked down at me with a sad smile and shook his head, “No, I gave her my blood right away, but I’m afraid it was too long after the accident.”
“Eric, you need to go put on some clothes. We have a guest in our house,” I said. I was blushing all the way to the tips of my toes. This surely wasn’t normal. Eric didn’t normally stand around the house with no clothes on.
“I assure you that Alcide doesn’t mind. Remember I told you that he’s a werewolf. Every full moon he’s around his pack, and they all strip off their clothes. It’s nothing he hasn’t seen before.”
“It’s not right. Please put some clothes on for me,” I said looking up at him.
“For you,” he said. “I’ll be back in a moment.”
I couldn’t help but watch Eric saunter out of the kitchen, and when he was finally gone, I turned to Alcide to find him looking at me, studying me.
“Do you remember, Eric?” Alcide asked.
“No, I don’t remember anyone or anything from before the accident.”
“And you’re fine staying here with him?”
“Why wouldn’t I be?”
“He’s a pretty good guy for a vampire, but do you know what you’re giving up by staying with him? Don’t you want to be with someone that has a warm body? A pulse? See the sun? Have children?”
“There’s nothing wrong with Eric,” I said, placing my hands on my hips. “I’ve seen the sun, just this morning I watched the sunrise with Eric. I don’t mind at all that he has no pulse or that he isn’t as warm as I am. And children? What if I had a child right now? I wouldn’t remember my child. Or how to take care of it. I don’t feel the need right now,” I said, letting out a sigh.
“Why are you saying these things to me? Eric loves me. He’s the only person I know,” I whimpered out, before tears welled up in my eyes and started to fall down my face.
“You don’t know anyone else because that’s the way he wants it. He’s keeping you locked up in here. Isolating you!”
“What the hell is going on here?” Eric shouted as he walked into the room before he wrapped me in his arms and pulled me to his chest.
“I was just letting her know that she has other options. She doesn’t have to stay with you. She can find a real husband. Someone with a pulse and who can give her children. She doesn’t even know you. Does she know what you’re capable of?”
“Enough!” Eric shouted. It was so loud all the windows shook. I cringed against him, frozen.
“I’m sorry, Sookie. I didn’t mean to scare you,” he said while stroking my hair and rubbing my back.
“Mutt, you better get out of our house. I want you out of my area before I rise tomorrow night.”
“I just wanted to give her options.” Alcide desperately said.
“She’s my wife!” Eric’s arms tightened around me, and I couldn’t help but relaxed into his embrace. “If she wants options, she only has to ask. Now leave before I tear you limb from limb.”
“That’s fine,” Alcide spat. “I’m out of here, but Sookie, do you see who you’re living with? He’s a vampire, not someone who’s all sweet and cuddly,” he said, before storming out of the loft.
I blew out a breath that I didn’t even know I was holding before I looked over toward Eric.
“Was that typical?” I asked him.
“No, if it were he would have lost his job long ago and maybe his life along with it.” Eric growled, still looking at the door Alcide had walked through. After a moment, he looked down at me and his features softened. “Are you okay?” he asked me, looking concerned once again.
“Yeah, I guess.”
“Sookie,” he said, walking over to me. He cupped the side of my face with his hand and rubbed his thumb along my bottom lip.
“I know that you don’t know me or love me right now,” he said before looking away for a brief moment. When he looked back at me, I watched his adam’s apple bob as he swallowed. “And you may never fall in love with me again.”
“Eric,” I said to interrupt him, but he shushed me by moving his thumb to cover my lips.
“Let me finish,” he replied. I nodded for him to continue. “Now that your telepathy is gone or fortified so strong that you no longer can read minds. You can be with any man you want.”
What?! Was he tired of waiting for me? Had I become too much for him to handle? Too much of a burden?
“Kära en, whatever you’re thinking, you’re wrong. I want you more than anything. Anything! But if you ever want anything else or anyone else then I will let go. Not because I want to, but because I only want you happy.”
“You could do that?” I asked in a whisper.
“I would do it for you. It would be the hardest thing that I’d ever have to do, but if it is ever what you wanted, I would,” he said before kissing my forehead. “We have more to discuss, but it will have to wait until we get home from Fangtasia. We need to leave soon, so go upstairs and finish getting dressed.”
As I walked upstairs to freshen up and put on my shoes and socks, a lone tear slid down my cheek.
I may not know Eric, but after everything he had shown me, how much he cares about me, I knew that I’d never be able to find a better man.
And I’m sure I didn’t want to even try.