Bold is Sookie thinking back to yesterday.
This morning was the first day I’d woken up alone ever since we had been on our island. We had been here for five glorious days by the time Pam called last night.
The witch had been caught and captured. Pam was on her way to Fangtasia as they spoke to begin interrogating and God only knows what to get her talking to reveal and reverse the spell.
I thought that was all they would do. I was under the assumption we would be returning this afternoon and, once we arrived, all would be back to normal. The spell would be reversed. That was until I woke up this morning next to Eric.
He was dead to the world and cold.
There I was sitting on our beach alone and thinking over our time here. I knew I shouldn’t be sad, but I was going to miss him. I was going to miss seeing Eric out in the sunlight, and watching sunrises and sunsets together.
While we’d been here, Eric would set the alarm on his phone, and we would get up and go out to the loungers to snuggle up and watch the sunrise. We knew it wouldn’t last so we wanted to make every moment count.
I had gone down to the beach because I couldn’t sit inside the house. I wanted to be by Eric, but I couldn’t. It was too upsetting to see him lying there dead to the world. It was back to our usual routine for the last day here.
Hearing the alarm going off, Eric and I slowly made our way out of bed. After taking care of our morning necessities, we headed upstairs and went in different directions. I went to the kitchen to get us coffee while Eric went to get us a blanket. We would meet at the back door and head out to our lounger.
Eric sat down first while I placed our coffee on the small table by the lounger. I sat in between Eric’s legs and leaned back into his warm, strong chest. Eric placed the blanket over us and wrapped his arms around me. We sat there drinking our coffee watching the sunrise over the ocean. It was beautiful. It made me cry every time, realizing these few short days were the only ones we would ever have to do this.
After the sun had risen and the only colors in the sky were blue and white we got up. Eric pulled me against him cradling my face in his hands. Using his thumbs, he wiped away my tears and kissed me. In that kiss, he showed me how special our time was to him and how much he loved me. I wasn’t sure how I would feel when we first bonded; feeling all of Eric’s emotions, now I missed them. I missed knowing exactly how he felt at any given moment. Though Eric was quite expressive when it was just us, knowing what he was feeling was now even more special, especially because of the way the curse had affected our bond.
This morning I was crying for a different reason. I was alone watching the sunrise and it wasn’t as beautiful without Eric. He wasn’t here to dry my tears or kiss me, reminding me how special this was.
I gave Eric one last kiss before heading inside to make us breakfast.
After I ate, I headed back down to the beach. I lay there looking out at the ocean thinking about our time on the beach yesterday.
After eating breakfast, we decided to get ready to go down to the beach. I put on my swimsuit and the sarong that Eric bought me. He must have requested that Pam get me a red bikini because the red hibiscus sarong he bought me matched. It shouldn’t surprise me as red is his favorite color.
Fortunately, I put the camera on the charger last night or it wouldn’t have been ready to use today. I had probably taken hundreds of pictures of Eric and us doing any and everything.
Eric grabbed a couple of the loungers from the deck to take to the beach. I had him lay down on the lounger so I could slather him in sunscreen. The best part was that I found a few ticklish places on Eric and I just knew I would take advantage of that for as long as I could!
It was so funny seeing him try to squirm away from me while I straddled him with both of laughing so hard. It was something I would always treasure. I was almost certain no one had ever seen Eric like that before, not even in his human days.
We lay out and enjoyed the sun until we were both hot. I was standing up taking a drink of water when Eric grabbed me from behind and ran us into the ocean. He twirled us around, and then threw me into the water. I was screaming before I plummeted into the water. I came up out of the water sputtering and wiping water out of my eyes.
“Eric! What the hell?” I glared at him.
He chuckled at me, “Don’t be so mad. I was just having fun and you’re okay. I would have saved you if you needed it.”
I splashed him and tried to swim away, but Eric was too fast and caught me. I’m not sure if he was this fast as a human or he still had some of his supernatural speed.
We splashed each other and I tried to dunk him, but I could never get him under. We were laughing and carrying on, having a great time.
I wrapped my arms around Eric’s neck and kissed him. I looked at him smiling, thinking about how beautiful he looked out in the sun with water dripping off him.
I started kissing his neck and nibbling on his ear. Eric groaned into my neck. He was slowly walking us back to shore while I kissed, nibbled, and sucked all the skin I could reach while I wrapped my legs around him. Eric untied my bikini top and threw it. I only hoped it made it to shore.
Eric put my feet on the ground, and then I grabbed the waistband of his swim trunks pulling them down. He sat in the sand and pulled the side strings of my bikini. Once my bottoms fell off, Eric grabbed my hips and pulled me down on top of him. I sat on top of him kissing and grinding until neither of us could no longer wait anymore.
Eric’s hand slipped around me and I felt as he positioned himself at my entrance. I slowly lowered myself onto him. Both of us groaned once Eric was deeply and fully inside of me. I started rocking back and forth quickly, riding him at a fast pace. He grabbed my hips and slowed us down. Cradling my face in his hands, he looked at me with such unwavering and abiding love it nearly had me crying, yet again.
“You are so beautiful!” Eric exclaimed. “You are even more beautiful out here in the sun making love with me,” He kissed me then with fervent passion that quickly turned hungry and urgent. Eric swiftly turned and laid me down on the sand thrusting into me slowly yet powerfully.
“Oh God, Eric. Don’t stop! Please!” Eric leaned down taking my nipple into his mouth and the other hand trailed down my stomach for his thumb to rub fast circles over my clit. I was moaning, pulling Eric closer kissing and sucking on his neck. Just as my orgasm hit fully I bit Eric on the shoulder and he roared out his release.
Eric laid his head on my shoulder as we both tried to catch our breath. Once he caught his breath, he rolled over pulling me on top of him. I laid there listening to his heartbeat slow and relaxed to the rise and fall of his chest. I was almost asleep when Eric spoke.
“I think we should go in the water and rinse off all this sand. Don’t you?”
“Mmm,” was all I could say. I had just about fallen asleep and didn’t want to move.
“Let’s go rinse off inside, and then we can take a nap on the hammock. That sounds nice, doesn’t it?”
Eric sat up with me going with him. He wrapped his arms around me and stood up.
“Do you need me to carry you back to the house?”
Normally I would say no, but I was too tired and just wanted to go to sleep. Being out in the sun and the amazing sex had zapped my energy so I just nodded my head. I felt Eric’s strong arms lift me bridal style. I laid my head on his chest and wrapped my arms around his neck. I felt Eric kiss the top of my head as we started moving toward the house. Once we made it to the house, I finally spoke.
“Can’t we just take our nap now and shower later?”
“I’ve got sand up my ass and I want to get it out,” he chuckled.
I couldn’t help it I busted out laughing! It was too funny! I probably had sand up my ass too, and who knows where else, but right now, I was too tired to care. I had finally stopped laughing when we got into the bathroom. Eric was scowling at me, but I couldn’t help it, it was too funny. I kissed him on the tip of his nose and told him I was sorry. He sat me down on the counter top while he turned on the water and waited for it to warm up.
Once we were all clean and (hopefully) the sand was out of our crevices we headed back outside for our hammock nap.
I lay down on the hammock next to Eric and snuggled up as close as I could. I looked out at the ocean and the sound of the waves lulled me to sleep in the only arms where I truly felt safe.
I awoke to the feeling of Eric’s hand caressing my back.
“Did you sleep well?” He asked. He must have felt me move or something to know I was awake.
“I did. I always do when I sleep with you,” I told him tightening the arm I had around his stomach. Eric kissed the top of my head and tightened his arms around me.
We lay there that way for about another thirty minutes. I finally got up, gave Eric a chaste kiss on the lips, and headed inside to make dinner.
Tonight I was making chicken fried steak and banana pudding. On our plane ride here, I asked Eric if he thought there were any foods that he might want to sample that he thought might appeal to him or smelled good. He told me he had never really spent any time around humans while they ate given that it would look strange for him not to be eating. I should just make whatever I liked and he would try it. I’d been making so much food I was sure I’d gained at least five pounds since we arrived. I’d made Eric shrimp and grits, chocolate cake, s’mores, shrimp étouffée, corn bread, jambalaya, chicken and biscuits, all southern comfort food.
After eating dinner and ‘first dessert’ as Eric liked to call it because later he would be having his second, more personal and private dessert that he really enjoyed (Who was I kidding? I thoroughly enjoyed it too!), we made our way down to the beach to watch the sunset. We sat in the sand, me in between Eric’s legs leaning back into his chest watching all the colors in the sky.
I don’t think I’ll ever get over how beautiful it was to watch the sunrise and set over the ocean. We walked along the beach, holding hands, the moon illuminating everything below. I loved each and every minute here. We were just like any other normal couple here. Eric had been more open while he was here and had so much fun. I was hoping that he stayed this way with me once we returned to Louisiana.
Louisiana. That reminded me that I needed to try to change our flight seeing as we would, obviously, not be leaving until dark. I headed inside to call the airline and make what changes necessary. After changing our flight to a little while after dark, I packed all of our belongings and placed them by the bedroom door for Eric to carry up once he rose for the night.
I went back down to the beach reminiscing more over our time here. This island would be forever special to me for having given us this time to spend with one another. I was happy that I had taken so many pictures to help us remember. I thought I’d buy one of those digital picture frames and load all the pictures onto it, and that way we could see them whenever we wanted. I also wanted to do something special with them so that Eric could have them forever.
Forever. That word started me thinking on the few comments Eric had made about his hope that one day I would want to join him in eternity as a vampire. I never thought it be my choice to be a vampire, but I also never thought I would fall in love with one either. When I was a little girl, this was not what I expected for my future. As an adult, I had consigned myself to knowing I would always be alone. Now I had Eric and I couldn’t imagine my life without him. I needed to ask Eric more than a few pointed questions before making any decisions.
I had no idea how long I’d been staring out at the ocean thinking about this wonderful island and how happy we’d been here. My eyes were blurred with tears so I didn’t realize that the last rays of the sun had disappeared and the sky was now dark until I felt strong, cold hands wrap around my shoulders.
I turned around and saw the sad look upon his face. I could feel that he was worried and concerned for me.
“Lover, what’s wrong? Why are you crying?”
I launched myself at Eric, wrapping my arms around his neck, burying my heading into his chest. A few more tears fell down my cheeks while I tried to think of the best way to explain my emotions to Eric so he wouldn’t get upset. I didn’t want him to think I was unhappy he was no longer human. I breathed in his scent and let it envelop me, calming me. I pulled back, and sat down in the sand. I grabbed one of Eric’s hands in both of mine.
“I’m sad because when the alarm went off this morning you were dead to the world. You missed out on the sun today. If I would have known that yesterday was the last day for you, I would have done something special for you,” I said, and then looked down at our hands.
“That’s the way it is for vampires. When we were turned, none of us had any idea that that day would be the last of our old life and the beginning of our new one. Sookie, look at me,” I slowly lifted my head and looked into his beautiful blue eyes. Eric cupped one side of my face with his free hand. “Every minute we had in the sun here has been special with you. Be it sunrise, sunset, or high noon. They were all special. You did that, please don’t feel badly,” Eric leaned in and kissed me so sweetly.
When we finally broke apart and I could think again, I spoke, “I rescheduled our flight. It’s in about ninety minutes so I guess we better get ready to go,” Eric nodded. “Let’s go lock up the house, get our luggage, and say goodbye to the island.”
Eric stood up and held out his hand for me. Quietly we walked back up to the house to gather our things. After locking everything up and taking one final look around, we headed down to the boat dock.
The boat and car ride were made in silence. I slept our first two flights due to all my crying and because I had woken so early. I was emotionally drained. We were on our last flight home and that gave us about an hour until we arrived in Shreveport.
“Eric, can I ask you some questions?”
“You know you can always ask me anything,” he said giving me his full attention.
“I didn’t know if you were busy over there strategizing.”
He smiled at me, “I’m never too busy for you. Ask away.”
“I have some questions about being a vampire or becoming one.”
Eric’s face may have stayed expressionless, but I could feel how happy my statement had made him.
“Ask me anything you want,” he said, turning his body toward me as well as he could in his seat. Even in first class, there wasn’t quite enough legroom for him, especially at that angle.
“Okay. I know that once someone is turned, they do not normally stay with their maker for long. If I ever agree to be turned, it would be to stay with you, and if we are only going to stay together for a short period then what’s the point? We can stay together with me staying human for just as long,” I said and started biting my lower lip.
“That’s true that the maker and child do not stay together long.” Tears sprang to my eyes, but before they could start to fall, Eric spoke again. “Don’t cry anymore today. You’ve cried too much. Just listen to what I have to say. Okay?” I nodded. “While that’s the norm; that would not be the case for us. It’s very rare for a vampire to bond with a human or vampire. We do not want anyone knowing how we are feeling. If a vampire bonded to another vampire; that would give the other vampire power over him or her. We don’t do that,” he said with a slight shake of his head. “So, as I said it’s very rare. If a vampire turns his or her bonded, then they will stay together forever. They will not be able to separate from each other. If the maker and child are bonded beforehand the bond they share is very strong, much stronger than a normal child and maker bond.”
“So, literally, together forever,” Eric nodded. “And you would want that?”
“More than anything,” It was me that kept my face expressionless this time, but I knew Eric could feel how happy his statement made me. I wanted to tell him how sweet it was, but I didn’t think it would be appreciated in this situation. I knew he didn’t care for it when I told him he was being sweet.
“Would I be hungry all the time and if so, for how long?”
“Yes, you will be hungry and will have to feed every day for at least the first couple of years, but you won’t be starving all the time.”
“How long would I have to wait to see my friends and family?” I wanted to ask what it was like seeing everyone you love die, but for Eric that happened before he was turned.
“You can see them whenever you want. You would need to feed before you saw them and I would come with you.”
“What if I don’t want to feed off of anyone?”
“Then you won’t. It will be your decision. You can drink bagged blood and Royalty, but you will have to learn to feed off humans. You must do this in case you are ever hurt. You need to know how to feed so you won’t kill any humans in an emergency.”
“What about you? How will you be feeding if you can’t feed off of me?”
Eric furrowed his brows, “I don’t know. You are the best thing I’ve ever tasted and I don’t particularly want to return to drinking the filth of the fangbangers, but I will.”
“I don’t think I would want to see you feeding off others. You wouldn’t be jealous of me feeding off someone?”
“No, it’s only feeding. If you wanted to have sex with someone then, yes, I would be jealous. Moreover, we’ll be able to feel what one another are feeling. You will know that I’m not interested in anyone else but you. I know you don’t understand this now, but if you’re ever a vampire, given time you’ll understand it’s only feeding. Just as a human, you have to eat food. I would hate you making such an enormous decision with your determining factor being jealousy of me feeding off humans. Know that if I could have you forever and only feed from you I would. I’ll still be able to bite you and you’ll be able to bite me, but we will not be able to give each other the nourishment that human blood gives to a vampire.”
“I’ll try to remember that, but as you said I would probably need time and to experience it for myself before I could see it as only feeding.”
“I understand. You know that vampires are capable of having sex without feeding or that I can at least, but you have never really witnessed a vampire feeding without having sex, but it is possible. Most vampires are not in relationships, therefore; mostly all indulge in feeding and sex at the same time. We would be different. Don’t worry about this. We’ll figure it out if and when the time comes.”
“So I won’t be all crazed with hunger, want to kill everyone, and have sex with them.”
“No,” Eric chuckled. “You were around Jessica after she was turned and you saw how she behaved. You don’t have to worry about that. I will not let you kill anyone and I’ll make sure that you’re not hungry.”
“How are you going to make sure I don’t kill anyone?”
“First off, I will always be stronger than you and secondly, I can always command you not to kill anyone. Before you say anything about me commanding you, know that I do not want to turn you to have control over you. I only want to turn you so that I can have you as my mate forever. I would only command you on life and death situations. You know that I am a good and fair maker. If you have any questions about that then you can ask Pam.”
“I don’t think I have any more questions for you right now, but I may have more later. I have time to decide this, right? You said me drinking your blood will make me stay younger longer, right?”
“That’s correct. You have all the time you need. You’ve made me very happy just thinking about this. I will never pressure you to make a decision. I know it’s a very major decision for you to make; one most vampires don’t get to make.”
“Thank you, I appreciate you not pressuring me,” I smiled at him.
“I do have a question for you,” I nodded. “If something was to happen to you now, or anytime in the future, where I could not heal you, would you choose to die or would you let me turn you?” After asking, Eric turned in his seat and stared straight ahead. I assumed to go back to strategizing.
I sat there for the rest of the flight thinking about Eric’s question. If I had the choice, did I want to die or let Eric turn me? That was the million-dollar question.
Pam was waiting for us at the airport. I sat quietly in the back seat still contemplating Eric’s question while Eric and Pam talked in hushed voices. I didn’t know what they were talking about, but I think they were fighting.
Once we arrived home, I was tired so I excused myself to go to bed. I figured Eric would tell me about why they were fighting. I had only been in bed for about ten minutes when Eric came in. He stripped off his clothes and slid into bed, pulling me to him. We were quiet for a few minutes.
“I’ve thought about the question you asked me earlier on the plane. If I couldn’t be healed would I choose to die or let you turn me? If it came down to that, then I give you permission to turn me.”
Eric kissed me so passionately that I was almost afraid he wasn’t going to stop when I needed air. When he finally pulled back, I gasped for air. He had a big smile on his face and cupped my face in his hands.
“Thank you. I would hate to ever to be in a situation such as that and you unable to answer me. I would not pressure you to decide whether you want me to turn you in the future. I’ll wait for you. I never want to lose you, Sookie, but if you decide you never want to become a vampire then I will respect your decision. I’ll stay by your side forever, whether it is your forever or mine. Either way I will follow you.”
“What do you mean follow me?”
“I mean whenever you die, after you die, I will follow you.”
“I don’t want you to die. Ever. Do you understand that? You belong, alive, and walking on this Earth.”
“I understand. I feel the same way about you. I don’t want you to die either, but I don’t ever want to be here without you.”
I started to argue with him, but he put one of his fingers to my lips.
“Shhh, let’s not talk anymore about this tonight. We don’t have long before dawn and I don’t want to argue about it till dawn takes me away,” I nodded in agreement. Eric kissed my forehead, then each of my eyes, my nose, and then softly on the lips.
“You’re still sad,” Eric stated.
“I am, but just a little bit.”
“You’re sad because vacation time is over, and your boyfriend is back to being a vampire,” he said, trying to understand from where the source of my sadness stemmed. When Eric said ‘boyfriend’ his nose scrunched up as if the word disgusted him.
“You are too cute!” I exclaimed.
“I am not cute, nor will I ever be cute, Sookie,” he scowled at me.
“Yes, you are. When you said boyfriend, the face you made was cute. If you’re always going to make that face when you use that word, or have it said about you, then it is going to be your official title,” I said and giggled at him.
“I am your bonded and your mate. Not boyfriend,” he said seriously.
I gave him a curt nod and a ‘yes, sir.’ “Yes, you are, as I am yours,” Eric had the biggest smile on his face. I forgot how happy it made him, for me to tell him I was his. I should do it more often.
“Sookie, we can go back to the island any time you want. I knew you would love it.”
“I do love it and I already miss it. Can we go back tomorrow?”
“Not tomorrow, but soon. After everything is taken care of here. It will always be somewhere special to the both of us. I want you to know that I will always cherish our time there. I finally had the chance see what you look like in the sun and you’re more beautiful with the sun shining on you then I ever thought possible. I love you very much, Sookie,” I could feel how much he loved me and so many other emotions swirling around. Times like these made me love him even more.
“It’s almost dawn, but tomorrow when I rise I must speak to you about some decisions that need to be made, and then we’ll have to go to Fangtasia.”
“Okay,” I said, unsure of what he wanted to talk about tomorrow that we didn’t have time now to discuss it.
“Come and snuggle with me before dawn takes me,” I giggled at him.
“You’re just one big softy. You know that right. I think you’re the only vampire in the world that likes to snuggle.”
“Only with you, Lover.”
I snuggled up close to Eric and laid my head on his chest. I kissed him where just last night his heart was beating.
“Good night, Eric. I love you.”
“Good night, my Sookie,” He said and kissed the top of my head, wrapping his arms around me.